She knows I masturbate. She just doesn't know how much. Part II - Masturbation Muses

Wifey knows I masturbate. Occasionally she knows when I do. I’m not so secretive any more like I used to be; and I leave clues sometimes, but not often.  But as others have said on the Onania Forum and other places online in their comments, our female partners would most likely be shocked, or at least surprised at how much we masturbate. During my normal routine I usually jack off twice a day: once in the morning as soon as Wifey leaves for work and then usually a longer more elaborate session in the afternoon, my “me time”.  Lots of times I engage in more masturbating during the day -- or at night as the mood strikes me and I can get the free time and privacy. I don’t think I’m all that different in this from many of you other masturbators, right?

Muses

I think our wives and girlfriends would be even more surprised to know whom we masturbate to. It's not usually my wife; and it's not usually your girlfriend is it? You have a porn muse in your mind that you stroke to. I have my collection of porn on my computer, … pics and vids and stories which get me hard and help me cum. And of course I have  my stack of choice DVDs that I can play during my longer sessions, jacking as I watch them. The women in them are what Richard Lovel terms our “Masturbation Muses.” My wife has no idea that I carry around specific images in my head of my masturbation muses. If I just "do" myself in a quickie, I can usually get hard and cum just by shutting my eyes and stroking to the fantasy in my mind of my current muse. I think all of us strokers have one muse who is always there to turn us on in our need.

Even before my cousin first taught me to masturbate, I had an image of a naked woman in my mind who pleasured me. I had acquired a paperback porn novel somewhere when I was about 10, a very tame one in those days: the librarian heroine takes a businessman into her back office and he “dives right into her pubic area.” I didn’t know what "diving in" meant nor what a pubic area really was yet, but I know that lying on my bed and reading about her made me feel real good down in my crotch, and it felt nice to press myself into the bedspread while I read about her breasts.

My first real masturbation muse was my Aunt Babe, a long lanky red-headed woman with smallish tits. I was amazed to find my parents had a half dozen pictures of her naked. They kept them in a drawer in their nightstand. I used to rummage around when they were gone, being a nosy kid interested in sex. Aunt Babe was spread out on a couch I recognized from my Aunt and Uncle’s family room. In a couple of the pictures my uncle and my dad were both “wrestling” with her – all of them were naked!
I suppose my mom was the photographer. There was one picture of Aunt Babe with her legs spread wide. Weirdly, in some of the pics a stuffed iguana was lying between her open thighs, its long leather tongue licking out toward this red bush of hair between her legs. That iguana was one that they kept on a shelf by the TV in their family room. I had no idea what this was all about with her crotch and a lizard, but it gave me an erection. I could now tell what a “pussy” looked like. And by now I had learned how to masturbate. I sneaked the picture out of the bedroom and jacked off to my Aunt Babe and the red fuzz covering her pussy. I did this so many times. Each time I would return the picture to the nightstand and put it back under the vibrating massager they kept on top of the pile of pictures along with what I later found out were condoms.

One day the pictures were gone, and it vaguely occurred to me that my mom might have caught on to the fact that I was masturbating to pictures of my naked aunt. It didn’t help that my mom had noticed how I blushed when we visited Aunt Babe and how I kept staring at her. But I didn’t miss the pictures too much since I had figured out what the vibrator was good for. Thankfully my mom hadn’t removed that too. I used to sit on the edge of their bed, plug it in and turn it on. I would unzip right there. Then I’d hold the cupped attachment of it on the end of my penis and experience pure bliss! I used to love to make myself hard with it, then cum into some Kleenex my mom kept on the nightstand. I’d do this almost every day after school if my mom was out of the house. I just kept the image of my masturbation muse,  Aunt Babe, in my mind, as I buzzed my cock with the vibrator.

I found my next masturbation muse in a drawer in my dad’s workbench. It was a magazine with pictures of that wonderful naked girl, Betty Page. For guys of my advanced age, Betty was the first real porn girl. Most of our fathers had nude pictures of her. I jacked off dozens of times to her and that magazine. I still hadn’t seen a good clear picture of a real pussy yet, but Betty’s bush and her wide-spread legs made me cum just perfectly. Even without the magazine I could lie in my bed at night and remember her naked poses while I masturbated to her and came into a sock or some toilet paper. I suppose there were some other – unremembered - naked women my dad kept pictures of in the drawer, but … Betty!

By the time I finished junior high school I had acquired a stash of my own masturbation muse pictures, mostly Playboy centerfolds and similar magazines. In those days they didn’t show any pussy and I was still quite frustrated to find new pictures of what one actually looked like up close. But I was satisfied – and gratified - by the naked bunnies. At least I had a selection of masturbation muses of my own that I could jack off to.

By the middle of high school I was jacking off to ideas and fantasies of real live girlfriends … my masturbation muses were usually in class pictures I’d hold as I masturbated. And then came the glorious days of actually fondling and masturbating a high school girl, and finally discovering what a pussy actually was like to touch … I touched one or two!! I still masturbate to the memory of the first time a girl touched my penis and masturbated it for me! (Thank you, Penny S.!)


I read a quote from one of the porn queens once. She said, "I made your boyfriend and your husband cum before you did! I've made your father, your brother and all the men you know cum hundreds of times! Often, when they are inside you and they shut their eyes real tight as they ejaculate, it's my pussy they're fucking!"

By then porn movie theaters were within my reach so during high school I began a lifelong odyssey of watching a succession of porn goddesses actually spread their legs and accept penises into their pussies, or their asses, or …. their mouths! My first real movie porn goddess muse was not Linda Lovelace, as she was for so many guys. Instead ...

The wonderful Marilyn Chambers in “Behind the Green Door.” was my first movie porn goddess.  I will never forget the first time I sat in a Mitchell Brothers theater and spurted cum into a snack bar napkin to her up there on the screen. My god she was hot!


She did things I never dreamt of, but have carried around in my head ever since. Marilyn was my masturbation muse for a whole summer, followed in later months by Seka, Vanessa, and Amber and many others you masturbators my age remember as fondly as I do, I’m sure. I jacked off to every one of them! Whole rows of us would be masturbating at the same time in the theater; and sometimes, yes, even masturbating each other in the dark as we watched them fucking on screen. (Thank you, Jim McD.!)

I masturbated the day I got married. Even when my first wife and I fucked constantly, I still masturbated all the time! I would masturbate in the bathroom while she prepared dinner. I masturbated when she went to the grocery store. I masturbated into condoms on the way to and from work. I would engage in those long luxurious masturbation sessions in hotel rooms when I traveled alone on business. I bought the nastiest porn magazines, spread them out on the hotel bed and jacked off while a porn movie played on the TV. I would be naked and sometimes masturbate all night to my masturbation muses on screen or in the magazines. I think I must have shot gallons of cum to the queen of porn mags and videos in those days, my masturbation muse Nina Hartley. I remember lying in a hotel room exhausted from wanking to her over and over again on a long weekend. My dick is still sore!

And I never quit going to the porn theaters or acquiring porn movies on VCR and DVD. For several years only the magnificent Barbara Dare could hold my attention as my masturbation muse from the porn movies. She was something different. Aggressive, in charge of the fucking, and God did she know how! I practically pulled my cock off jacking to her! I still hope to actually fuck her some day.

Now, as I have gotten older, I tend to ‘live” with the same masturbation muses for a long time. Through the internet I can find different or newer videos or pictures of the same woman who lives in my head and performs in my fantasies when I masturbate or even think about doing it. For a long time my favorite masturbation muse has been “Tori”, whom a lot of you fellow masturbators will recognize. She just fits me and really turns me on. I have gigbytes of files of shots of her from her youngest porn spreads to her most recent. I love her tits, her cunt, the way she is gently chewing her lower lip as she shows me her pussy. Here she is in the picture I most often get hard and masturbate to: 

Finally, one reason for the first version of this long post about masturbation muses was to introduce my fellow JO buds to the latest masturbation muse I had at the time I wrote this originally. A great (anonymous) blogger over at the Google Plus Onania Support site introduced us to her through his Fellowship of the Cock blog, for which I thank him and salute him with my erect penis. We have both masturbated to her a lot the last two years. I've left gooney comments there about how I masturbate to her. She is something special, something different from my normal tastes, which run to large tits and pussies with ample pubic hair.  I’ve raved in comments on the blog about her sweet puffy little titties, her perfect little cunt, and the 'unattainable' message in the taunting look she gives us. As the blog notes, she knows we are all masturbating to her. Even if she finds us pathetic, she likes that we are cumming to her. Or something like that. C’mon, take your pricks out and enjoy her. I do. She’s one of the best Masturbation Muses. Usually I get hard for gals with thick thighs and heavy tits. (see below) This  cute masturbation muse is small, girlish and intensely erotic. She is both innocent and mocking, seductive and aloof. I haven’t put my finger on exactly what it is about her that makes me so hard just thinking about her, or holding her image in my mind. But I have put my finger(s) on my dick so often over her.

(added Aug 15,2014) If you read some of the later posts on this blog you can see that my muses have lately been hairy pussy gals and big big breasted women, along with a fetish about pregnant muses. God, I love the pics of when women are honestly getting off for real!






I'm turned on, too, by this wonderful muse masturbating as she lays on her tummy. Not a great muse picture for revealing her, but so erotic to understand what she is doing to herself.

Yes, Connie (aka Wifey), I STILL masturbate, and I masturbate a lot - mostly to another new muse each time one captures my imagination, and also to girls from the online masturbation sites or the files of videos on my computer. I masturbate in real time on cam with JO buds during the week, and I even jack off over the phone with strangers. You would indeed be amazed at the amount of cum I spurt out each week. You know I masturbate, you just have no idea how much!

 
PS -- Don't forget to support our troops! This Lieutenant Muse has certainly supported my erection very often!