I’ve been reading on line where so many older guys now have gone to masturbation as their only sex, now that their marriages are basically sexless. My experience is pretty typical of that, I think. I always masturbated from the time I discovered it as a kid. I masturbated all through my marriages, but always with that slightly guilty, slightly unsatisfactory feeling after I came.
Things really changed when my wife and I mutually decided to quit fucking after years of marriage. We both had different reasons for it, but the agreement led us both to be much happier without the pressure. For her, she’s happy not to have to worry about ‘satisfying’ me or having to put out anymore. She loves that freedom. For me, I began a new chapter in my sex life as I turned to a “serious” focus on getting as much out of masturbating as I could. Now days I have some of the best sex I have ever had! Like many older men, I finally just let the stupid masturbation guilt go and quickly learned how wonderful solosex can become. I let my wife know I was really getting into masturbation and how satisfying it was. I wasn’t going to keep it a secret or feel guilty about it. Now if she finds a huge file of porn on my computer, or a porn DVD left in the player, she is not surprised and accepts it good naturedly. She has caught me a few times jacking off (something that never happened when I was secret about it for all those years) and usually just shuts the door with a quick apology for disturbing me. I sometimes apologize for being careless and letting her catch me with my naked dick in my hands. I’ve also offered to let her watch or join in if she wants. It doesn’t interest her, but she says she is happy if I am happy.
So many new experiences have occurred since I began making masturbation such a big part of my life. Yes, I am addicted. I was surprised how quickly I came to need it and look forward to it all the time. I’m glad I’m addicted. I masturbate every day at least once. Often I get both a morning and an evening bate in. At least twice a week and sometimes more, I let myself have the full, goony, edging masturbation session that usually lasts a whole afternoon. I developed a whole set of routines that are so very satisfying. I regret that I missed so much time when I was younger that I could have been masturbating with such satisfaction! Some of the best techniques came only in the last few years when I began to explore and discover all the capacities for pleasure I could make my body experience. I had never played with my nipples at all until this period. What an incredible high they provide! It took time to “train” them to be so erotic/erogenous, but it is well worth being patient. Now, touching and pinching my nipples, squeezing them or putting clamps on them is something so special that I can’t do without. Even when for some reason I can’t take my cock out and masturbate, I can secretly massage or play in several ways with my nipples and make myself hard. Sometimes I can even cum that way. Anal pleasure became the same. At first I just stuck a finger in my ass and loved the extra sensations. But -- like with my nipples – my ass learned to love the attention. Penetration is a marvelous thing! For a while in the middle of my masturbation I would go around the house looking for something suitable to stick into my ass: a hairbrush handle, a kitchen tool, something from the toolbox. In my long edging sessions I began to need the stimulation in my anus to achieve that perfect bliss before I would cum. Eventually I made it to an adult toy store and found several butt plugs that give me such rich stimulation. My favorite is a 4” gel plug with a flat base. I love to sit down on it and fuck it in and out of my ass while I masturbate. The width is perfect to make the penetration amazingly good! The way it travels in and out … well you know.
Yes, I massage my erogenous zones, caress my body, heighten all my erotic sensations. I’ve given myself permission to be as nasty and “goony” as I need to be. In any session my orgasms now can be awesome. I can’t believe sometimes how incredible my cum feels when it finally spurts. I have such great sex with myself.
I could go on, and in some later posts, I will. There is such a list of things to tell: sucking a dildo as I cum, sexy lube with different sensations, rubbing my dick in my pants in secret when I’m in public situations; nearly fainting with pleasure when another guy fondled my cock and made me cum. Sucking and being sucked. And more.
My wife? I bought her a big pyrex glass dildo that she loves. We both use the massage vibrator often. Her masturbation sessions are private, usually in the bedroom or the bathroom. But she is giving herself pleasure too, these days. Sure, I miss sucking her titties or eating her lovely pussy, but masturbating makes up for that in so many ways.
I will close with the most often expressed thought we addicted masturbators have: I love masturbating! Now, more than ever! It is some of the best sex I’ve ever had.
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